Sorry that you got bad therapist. I'm sorry that you're contaminated by him. But you're realize that he's wrong. I know it's easier to say, but just break free.

You can reward yourself. You just don't want to do it. The bounds, the critics, they are illusions. You created them because of the bad therapist's influence. Now he's just somebody in past. Don't get stuck in the past. Let go.

Love yourself, be generous to you.