Could be triggering for some....

Having a pretty **** day. Feeling quite suicidal. Have been just awful to my son today. And I scared him. I feel guilty and I should. I feel bad too because I'm kind of in the start of a new relationship, and I think he kind of wanted to see me today. There's no way I can go out like this. I really super like him. But..what do I even say? This is why I don't even bother with relationships. I'm such a piece of ****. Blah...