I have not had stability in such a long time and whenever I do , I have a hypo phase and than a huge crash. I am hoping this time with the new meds that I can maintain.

I also have problems knowing who the real me is when it comes to mood and such. I will say I do like the happy bubbly me the most.

I guess when one is so down all the time the higher they can reach feels great. Thats how I see it.