Thanks for sharing your struggle. Perhaps this isn't needed in your situation. But I wondered if you are familiar with the National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1 (800) 799-7233.

Here's a link to their website:

The National Domestic Violence Hotline ? The Hotline

Also here are links to a couple of articles from the PsychCentral archives that may be of interest:

https://psychcentral.com/resources/A...stic_Violence/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...relationships/

I'm sorry you are caught in this most difficult situation. I wish you well as you move toward what hopefully will be a new happier, healthier life.