Hi - kinda new here. I'm not new to the psychcentral boards, but also haven't posted in over a year and i don't think I've ever posted in the bipolar board.

Anyway - I'm struggling with a mixed state right now and just need some support from people that actually understand what that is like. My therapist and psychiatrist are great, and they empathize, but they don't totally get it. My friends are awesome and supportive, but I have to spend too much time explaining things. My family...well, the less said on that front the better...they just don't even try to understand.

Mixed states just suck! My brain and body can't decide whether to be revved up or exhausted or both at the same time. I'm not sleeping well, even though my psychiatrist has had me increase meds to help with that. I'm super irritable and angry at the world. My motivation is non-existent and that is stressing me out because I'm trying to complete a degree program, I only have two classes left, and I can't seem to start the work for them! I'm feeling super impulsive. My therapist is rightly concerned about me and has asked me to check in with a daily voicemail, which is annoying the hell out of me (and I so appreciate it at the same time). I just wish things didn't suck so much right now. For me, mixed is the worst - I mean, yeah, depressive and manic moods are frustrating, but I at least understand them and know what to expect. When I'm mixed, I never know what to expect and that just stresses me out and makes things even worse.