I was just told by my therapist today that I have complex PTSD.

Anyway, my mother always believed, and she made a point of sending me to Sunday school before I was old enough to start school. But I didn’t for one second believe. When I was in high school, I wanted to believe for social reasons. I created much of the music for the church (as much as the musical director). But I had to fake it.

I just read that this is a symptom of Complex PTSD.