I think there is a legitimate and justifiable use of the meds. But, heck yes, the addiction could sneak up on you. Its good that you are thinking about this and being careful.

As for feeling a bit out of control...I guess that could be two different things--one maybe you are addicted to them. But also, maybe it is because you really need them. I feel like I can't make it through my day without my psychiatric meds--they are not even addictive, but mentally, I am dependent on them. Which is a good thing--I do need to take them.

This is going to be tough for you to sort out....maybe the question should be "can you live life without them?" If you need them because of medical reasons then keep an eye on your use of them and be cautious. If you don't really need them, then maybe you should try to back off of them and see what happens.

Whatever you decide, please be careful. Sorry if this sounds like I am giving advice--all this is just my opinion, so take it all with a grain of salt--I am not a professional--just a recovering addict/alcoholic.