Hello!

I may not be much of a help but I get that. Feeling alone and sad, especially this time of the year. I like lights and music but it makes me extra sad this year too. I'm sorry you don't have T support either, that would make me feel even more hopeless. But know that you're not bothering anyone here and it can be helpful to vent out to strangers sometimes, so keep posting, it may help you to get through this time. Well, I don't know, but that's what I'm doing too..