drunksunflower,
I wonder if you should see a different Doctor for a second opinion. It does not seem to me that you have a lot of faith in this one and trust is important. There are many different types of medications and to my knowledge some work better than others for different people.

If you decide to go without the meds. It is certainly your choice but do be cautious. Symptoms creep up and at times we are unaware. Could you speak to your friend about your desicion and ask them to help monitor your moods. I hope you have some support through this.

Take care and if you need to talk more please do.

Kim