Thats not good Spaz. Its sucks to feel like sheeetttt.

I am hanging on till my doctor gets back. I will probably go see him next week sometime if I still feel yucky. But things run through the body and we get better. I have to even phone as I need my thyroid meds. I am almost out. But I may be able to just phone and get the office to call it in to my pharmacy. As much as I miss my doctor, I don't want to see him. I have really been hiding out lately. Not feeling good in anyway so I just did not want to talk about this anymore.

I have avoided my old t this week, my chrioprator, and not going to see any doctors for now. I am tired of talking thats all. Not much has changed so what can they anyway?? Time.......

I am at the point of wanting to be alone. I don't talk to anyone. Friends have called and I don't call back. I am always so close to tears so why fall apart on them?? I am sure everyone here has felt like digging a hole and hiding in it where nobody can find you. Well, thats me right now. I hate the build up of tears in my throat, so close to just letting loose. sigh.......

I see my new tomorrow and I honestly don't want to go. I want them to leave me be for now. I need some time to work things out in my mind. But I know I have to go.

Justy