Therapy may not be helpful to you to find your own path; it seems like it has failed you at least so far in that regard. If you are being forced to go to therapy, I am sorry and that is not the way it's supposed to be. I'm sorry that I can't relate to your experience in therapy. I just posted because it did resonate with me, the idea that the people who probably need therapy the most will never get it. Therapists say these are usually narcissists, who think they are so perfect that therapy cannot be helpful to them.