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I am sorry you are hurting so much! I have done what you did, not with my regular T. But with my Trauma T, I went but she let me sit in the waiting room for 20 minutes, and when you don't want to be somewhere anyway, and the back door was right there, well it didn't take much arguing inside my head to use the door. I had never done anything like that before, 18months with T and I showed everytime. Well she is my T's co-worker, and she went right to him, he became very worried and started calling my cell and home and emailing me. I felt so guilty for doing what I did, I didn't want to worry or hurt either one of them, so I guess my situation was alittle different, but I was pissed that she made me wait so long. Felt like I was easy to forget............anyway, I had to call her, and apologize for leaving, we rescheduled and we talked about it, but it did put alittle bit of strain on the two of us for that session, and it really sent me regular T into a panic, he thought I had hurt myself. I didn't want to or intend to put either of them throuhg that.

So maybe you should call her, tell her what is going on, and hopefully the two of you can come to some kind of a understanding or she can explain what happened on her end. I hope this helps alittle, I am sure she is very worried about you if this is out of the normal for you.