hi Colleen you've come so far, through so much.... it has to feel exasperating at times... i can understand your fears of what might happen..

but look how much you've accomplished! there were times then when it looked foreboding...

i cant say in what way, or how good fortune might appear from nowhere... i just feel that someone who has climbed the mountains you have will somehow make it again, up another rocky climb.. to a new vantage point..

you've got will and determination.. i'd bet this becomes another hindsight that says, just when it seemed dark, the light came through ..

dont give up.... and look at back up ideas, just in case.... as you no doubt know, sometimes it takes longer to get there than we hope it will..

sending prayers and good thoughts ...