maybe someone can help?????? my mind is an absolute muddle... really truely.....

Please... the question isn't my dog...

so very sorry.. to have to say it here... but time has come when I must deal with my older dog.. he is 13-14... and a large breed...

and.. I am highly allergic and asthmatic.. to the yeast.. and fungus infections that he gets.... and they are.. very difficult to treat...

I had made up my mind.. that the next time.. he became ill.. that was going to be... "it"... no matter how hard..

I have been extremely ill the past few months...myself...

but it is very hard.... perhaps I could nurse him thru another 6 months I don't know... I do know.. it is.. baths 4 times a week... drops.. meds... and... I just can't do it..

So.. Friday is the day..

Today.. I went in to see my therapist... and I don't really know my therapist..yet I have been seeing him 2 times a week for over a year.....

My Question??????????????

am I in shock.. or something???????????... what is wrong with me????????? really.. I don't even want to go back to another session... I am.. like... really confused and scared on why this is happenning to me...

what could this be??????