Thanks again for the replies....I managed to try to stay busy today, but my mind is still haunted, no matter what I do. I'm pretty sure this is the lowest I have ever felt, and it has been going on for a few months now. I posted here last night because I was a little scared. And just needed to know someone was out there, listening to me. Evenings are hard....and again, tonight, is no exception. My heart feels pretty empty.