@stopdog: I'm still considering returning to this therapist because we've had a good relationship for the past two years where she had been supportive and available. After this incident, I conveyed to her that I thought therapy was a place where I could say anything that came to my mind. And she said agreed, but said that there were some boundaries - which I didn't understand because I couldn't see the distinction. She understood that boundaries were difficult for me to understand so we let that go for the meantime.

I guess whether I stay on or not would depend a lot on how the next few sessions progress. At least she was able to acknowledge her unprofessionalism; some therapists won't even recognize that and continue to be defensive about it. And she is open to working through this "rupture" with me. What I'm worried about is whether she is able to be fully present with me and listen to me in a neutral and professional manner. When I voiced that concern to her, she said that that was for her to worry about and take care of. Well; yes it is. But you can't expect me to feel as safe with you as I did before this incident.

I had bad experiences with previous therapists in the past, and didn't return to therapy for five years. I thought that therapy was a joke. So if things with this therapist doesn't work out, I don't think that I would look for another one again.

@AllHeart: She said thank you for the apology, and said that the point for us was to have boundaries. She agreed that I should be able to say whatever I want, but also said something about boundaries that I couldn't understand. And she was understanding about me not understanding the boundaries that she brought up. I can't even reiterate it.

For those of you who think that I attacked her daughter or the grandchild, I was thinking about how it was fair for her patients and me - in an emotional way. Yes; logically, it's not a matter of fairness or not. But it is that feeling of possibly being ditched that felt like a betrayal in some ways. I don't think it should be that difficult to empathize or understand this given how most of us have a fear of being dropped or ditched. Like I said to the therapist, I am sorry for letting my emotions get the best of me and lashing out; I am sorry from one human being to another. But I am not sorry for expressing myself to her - in a professional setting with her as the therapist.