I had years that wete similar. Though it was depression & being in & out of the hospital that hit me. For me it turned out to be situational because as soon as I left my bad marriage & started a life of my own far away it was like a new me, the one that had been trapped inside all my life finally came out.

We never know what the key to unlock the door will finally be.

Welcome to PC....wonderful, kind people here & many to relate wirh our struggles....some still struggling, some who have gone through the struggle but working to get stronger.

Ive been here since 2004 & have made some very good friends here. Hope you find PC to be a great help as you work toward your goals