I came to this topic because of a screening test (outside source) and the Sanity Score test (associated with this site). Both tests mentioned "high" score on DID.
I guess I can briefly explain what's going on...
I notice a very up and down when it comes to my moods. For example, one minute I can be very upbeat and happy and within a blink of an eye I'll become very angry, to myself and hateful. I would normally rule this out as "mood swings" but let me explain further...
When I'm in an upbeat happy mood, my personality changes with it. I become outgoing, talkative, excited and friendly. (Picture Elle Woods from Legally Blonde). I also have a friend that I become inseparable from when I'm like this. She and I get along great and we have fun.
Now...when I feel angry, to myself and hateful, my personality completely flip flops. I immediately stay away from people. I don't like talking to anyone and that friend I just mentioned...I hate her. When I'm like this I don't consider her a friend. I don't like her. She and I don't get along when I'm like this because she annoys me and I'm mean to her. I also feel more masculine (I'm a female) when I'm like this. However, with the personality I mentioned earlier, I feel very feminine.
These two are not the only ones. However, I did say this would be brief. Maybe I'll explain further if you guys would like me to. I'm confused because I don't understand what's going on. I literally "switched" on my friend tonight and she noticed this time. She acted shocked or surprised and said "what just happened? Why are you so aggressive all of a sudden?" I looked at her very confused like and shrugged my shoulders. This is what made me grow concerned.
Any idea what may be going on with me? (Extra note: My taste in music changes too). I'm not going to self-diagnose myself with DID because I don't understand it. I'm just concerned because both tests I took said the chance of DID was very high.
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