im crying so hard right now. i hate her i hate her i hate her. i called her. i can't even remember what happened. i'm trying to tell you but i'm so upset i cant even form sentences. she asked me what was going on. i dumbly asked what do you mean. she said you didn't show up today. i said i didnt feel like it. she said you didn't want to call me and tell me you didn't feel like coming? i said nope. she said i'm trying to make a point without using words. that this behavior needs to be looked at. she said shes not a mind reader and she doesnt know when i'm upset. she said,' i'm assuming your upset about the email you wrote.' GOOD GUESS. she asked if i thought my demands were too high so people couldnt meet them and thats why i got hurt. NO I DONT THINK ASKING YOU TO ANSWER MY EMAIL IS TOO HIGH OF A DEMAND, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU TOLD ME IF I WANTED AN ANSWER TO ASK FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she said she printed the email out but didnt get to read it until today, and she figured she'd see me today so thats why she didnt respond. that explanation did nothing for me. i'm still so mad. because its not just this one time i'm talking about, this isnt the first time i've waited for her. her tone of voice was so not comforting. it was a matter of fact, "well, if you dont want to come see me then thats up to you but i'm here if you need me" type thing. like its all my stuff. she hung up after saying "well i'll talk to you soon. you have some stuff to think about." a;skdfhjwoieskdhfgsdofij THANKS A LOT! i slammed the phone down and just burst into tears yelling i hate you i hate you and i havent stopped. she didn't help me at all. i dont want to see her monday. i dont want to have to work everything out in 60 minutes or less. i dont want to leave there upset again. i dont want to be hurt. i dont want her to hate me. she hates me. she had to be annoyed. i'm sick of her only caring about me in session. i can't stop crying. the only person who can stop my tears is the one who made me cry. what the hell am i supposed to do. WHAT DO I DO. i hate her. i need her. yet i know wednesday will come and i will have nothing to say to her. ill sit there looking down like i always do and mumble s**t like "i dunno" i'm such a mess. i want to like call her back but i dont want to even think about her. do i seriously have to ASK for her to comfort me? do i have to call her back and be like, "UM excuse me i'm in tears right now our last phone call did me no good, lets try this again." HOW DO I DO THIS