Congrats on making it to your first meeting!!! Seems like everyone always seems to forget and look over just how HUGE going to that first meeting is. It is enourmous..... No one in their right mind would ever WANT to go to their first AA meeting, right? Think about it? Back before things started going bad, when life was in fact good, who wanted to go to an AA meeting when we had no troubles in life? That first meeting, for me was the hardest thing I have ever done...... but it later saved my life.

As for calls and calling? I have been given 10's of thousands of names and numbers. I still have them all but almost never call anyone. I didn't call anyone for a year. My hands shook to bad and I was a nervous wreck but some called me occasionally and today I am glad for that.

I try to stay away from advice, we each have to find our on recovery but I would say this....... You need to find what is comfortable for you. I also personally believe that the God of our understanding will provide us with what we need. In other words, you really can't mess this up. Just go to another meeting.... then another..... then another...... one day at a time, life will get better and you will find comfort and smile again..... Promise! Tony