It is a hard place to be in, I'm sorry you are in that place.

I have 'spent' huge amounts of money at times when on the manic end...insight goes out the window.

It is good you are here talking to people about it, that can only help things.

Is there someone who can take your bank card for now?

I went wild a couple months ago, I have a bunch of stuff that I might be able to return, but i haven't had the energy to because of depression.

Unfortunately, I can't 'return' $2,000 I 'invested' in some crappy stocks that I was convinced I was going to get rich on...