Hello friends, I haven't been on here in a while (you'll see why below) but I need to vent about this conundrum I'm in with someone who understands.

A little over a month ago I up and quit my job. I got very upset and frustrated one day and just decided I simply could not do it anymore. This was not a case of "I don't like my job so I'm going to take my ball and go home," this was a case of "I may literally have been headed for a heart attack even before that day."

For years I've been dreaming of getting out of here... I live in Wisconsin, born and raised, and I've never lived more than 100 miles from where I was born and raised. This is a big disappointment (in my mind) as when I was a kid I dreamed of getting out of this state. So now here I am, no wife, no kids, no real commitments tying me down. So what's the problem, you ask?

Well, there's two problems. The first is that even though I have a college degree, finding employment in my chosen field is much harder than I anticipated due to modern technology, and I don't really have much experience in anything marketable. The jobs I've had are pretty much all entry-level, low-paying positions. This makes it rather difficult to find employment in another state. Why should they even consider talking to someone in a different state when there's a ton of people right in that area applying? And moving somewhere without having a job lined up isn't a good idea.

The second problem is FEAR. As much as I want out of here, I also suffer considerable anxiety anytime I seriously think about going somewhere else. I loathe moving as it is, and going somewhere completely new is even more nerve-wracking.

At the same time I know that I've got to get on with my life. It is true that "life is what you make of it," but it's also true that I'm simply not happy here. I'm tired of the long, bitter winters and the lack of culture and excitement. I'm not getting any younger and I still have some dreams that haven't died.

Clouding all of this up is my overall state of mind. While my depression symptoms are kept relatively in check with meds, I get discouraged very easily. I have mood swings, where one moment I feel like "I can do this!" and within an hour I feel hopeless about everything.

What it boils down to is this: I have a job interview for something that I have a pretty good shot at getting, and which would pay way more than pretty much any job I've ever had. (Not a lot of money to most people, but big money to me.) I've been thinking, well, maybe I should take it and just stay here another year or so and save some money, get some debts paid off, and with the higher level of pay I could actually afford to take trips to the different places I was looking at moving to. Another part of me says if I stay here another year or so I'll go out of my mind. And/or I'll fall into the "comfort zone" trap I've been pretty much all my adult life.

I know this is a lot to process but I would appreciate any words of wisdom, sage advice, etc. that any of you can offer.