Thanks! I tried my best to fall into line with the expected nice girl route, almost totally fake but it's like being fake nice WAS my way of trying to be really "nice", and express my love for my family that wanted it like that, if that makes any sense. Very confusing, even to me, even still I'm not sure it makes much sense.

By the way -- I think you said you were a math major? I was, too, not a very good student but all those abstractions -- take me away from the "real world"! Only here it is, still here.