i have been like this all of my life and i never even realized that this was a disorder. I am now 42 years old and have been like this all of my life. I have been trying to reach out to this group and get this understanding of what i can do to help myself. I am seeing my therapist on the 18th and for all of my life i have avoided any type of family get togethers, holiday affairs and what not. Basically anything that has to do with socializing with any people whats so ever... this is my life and its very lonely but i see no other way to break out of this cycle that i have been in all of my life. I dont know what else to do but to reach out here to this group for suport and try and get some people to respond to me as to how they are dealing with APD and what are some steps i can take to help me to overcome it? i know this has been a life long thing so its not gonna happen overnight but i dont want to continue to grow old and be so left out of society. Its scary but i need to make some changes in my life and this is my #1 struggle is this APD.. please help me