Have you dealt with other "trauma" feelings? They're unbearable, that's why they were dissociated, they last "forever" because they haven't been fully felt and processed yet. Each time I "bore" the unbearable up to the moment it became unbearable, I had "borne" and processed that additional little piece of it. It really sucks, I wish psychologists could come up with a way to help people process things more quickly. But I don't know of anything myself that might help.

It sounds like it's good that you know it's transference, at least some of it. And the unprocessed rage and anger from your childhood is bound to make any real-world, current-time issues you have with the T all the worse. So hopefully it's​ mostly the transference. So sorry you're having to go through this. :-(