I'm obviously not ready for any kind of work. But i just cant afford to miss this opportunity so im jumping in with both feets. I'm worried about the conflict of inner and outer world that goes on when we have to pretend to be "social, like nothing's wrong," so we can fit in with people and the work it takes to hide the secret that we just dont fit in, not anymore, not yet. I'm worried about my inner world spilling into the outer world and leaving me exposed to the whole world to see how broken i am. I just want to survive the first few weeks for the meds to kick in. How do you manage to keep your inner worlds from spilling into the outside world? Help me out here.. i need it..