T today. Exchanged greetings, then I Said I felt should bring up topic that ended last session, how asked difficult question at end. T: Oh man, you might have to refresh my memory. Me: we were talking about fading transference for MC and you asked me about if maybe I was shifting transference to you? T: right of course.

Me: that was kind of a tough question for end of session. T: [apologetic look]. Me: was worried so was tempted to contact you, but I managed to get through it. T said was good I'd managed anxiety on my own, that he was impressed. Told myself you'd scheduled appointment with me as usual. And still shook my hand as usual. That you weren't like, "ew, no, attachment cooties!" T laughed and said, " is that the official name, attachment cooties? You are in public health." I said I wasn't sure, but if I got in PhD program, maybe that could be my dissertation topic.

T asked if I wanted to talk more about that. I said I was worried about what happened if I started getting transference for him. Especially since he'd said last week he didn't have the training in it that MC did. He said he understood how that could worry me. That he just meant that MC's training in psychodynamic was more focused on that, how it encouraged using it as technique while his didn't so much.

He said if I developed transference, we would work through it. That it would be OK. He wouldn't just drop me. I said that made me feel better. He said that of course because he has adolescents and teens as clients (his main focus, along with sports psychology), he's dealt with clients having transference, that it's pretty common, and he's comfortable working through it. Just doesn't have the specific training.

I said that all made me feel better. And I was more relaxed the rest of the appointment, like able to make more extended eye contact and stuff.

More later (lots of stuff in session but trying to keep my posts from being novels--instead several novellas!)