I have that a lot. I believe part of it is that I am very controlled in front of others, and im scared to let go. That means I can be all emotional and have my head full of topics I want to talk about, and then I walk into her office and suddenly feel like, hell, what am I gonna talk about now. Sometimes I even want to talk about sth but dont know how to.

For,next session, I am writing stuff down. Ive done that before,and it has helped tremendously. That way, my brain can't just suddenly fake that all is fine and theres nothing but blank space in it.