I have experienced some of the same treatment from medical professionals as you have, Lennie, and I sometimes wonder what draws individuals into these professions, or what makes them stay in these professions after they have lost their ability to be compassionate (which I prefer to think is due to sensory overload) to those in pain. I have also noticed that those who are trained in the "physical" care of people just cannot grasp just how painful life truly is for those who suffer mentally. It is much easier to see the physical pain rather than the psychic pain.

I believe it is only a rare few who can truly deal with people with mental illness, even though some (most?) may have a high degree of interest and aptitude in the field of psychology, etc. But having an interest is entirely different from actually working in this field. I don't believe many really understand what is involved with dealing with real people as opposed to just studying about mental illness as they would in a classroom setting or learning through "case studies."

I also wonder how many students have chosen these professions (especially psychology) to help sort out problems in their own lives.

With that said, I admire your courage and stamina to keep going.

It is not easy finding a good therapist and it is even more difficult to find one that you can "click" with.

I wish you all the best in your endeavours to find quality care. I do know it's out there, so don't give up. It just may take awhile to find it.