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You have said so eautifully how feel too......althought I have been a verbal member of this community for nearly a year on and off....I feel I am too negative at this point to contribute ....
I feel judged sometimes also ..... and that's not what I'm here for .... having said that, it's MY problem that I feel judged ... but I feel paranoid too .... sometimes with good reason, sometimes not....
Ifyou would like to stay in contact for any reason, pm me and I will give you my e.mail address ... I am just taking a break from posting apart from the odd couple, that post you were talking about upset me too..... although I'm sure the poster didn't mean to upset....
I'm rambling, sorry .... I care about you
Jinny xxxxx