Part 2 of T session: the family of origin stuff:

I said I had my index card of topics, and he was like, "Are you going to take it out?" So I did, commenting how I'd even split the stuff into categories this time. It's a 4x6 card, lined on one side, but I'd written on the other side vertically, like I usually do. T said, "It fascinates me that you write on the non-lined side of the card and in the opposite direction."



Also mentioned some stuff about how my mom was acting toward me there, like how I offhandedly mentioned D getting speech therapy to my uncle's sister-in-law, and my mom shot me this look, suggesting she didn't want me to mention the autism. T asked if I said anything to my mom at the time, and I said no, didn't seem like the right setting. He said it would have been interesting to see what she said. I said, "Oh, she would have just denied that she gave me a look."

He asked if MC had ever met my mom, and I said no. Though I'd thought it could have been interesting because he thinks so many of my issues stem from stuff with my parents. I said how I'd thought more about what he said about bringing one or both of my parents to a session with him (T). That maybe that could be a good thing. But obviously I wouldn't do it in, like, the next few weeks because Christmas. He said no, something like that, you might want to spend months preparing for (which made me feel a bit better in light of attachment stuff, because it suggested he could picture us working together for that long...).

We talked more about what something like that could involve. Since he works a lot with teens, he talks to their parents a lot, including with them in the room. So he shared some of how he helps facilitate those conversations. Said again, like he'd said last time he mentioned topic, how I couldn't go into it looking for a certain result, like, an apology. That I had to know why I wanted to do it, that I'd be doing it to clear the air, remove tension from relationship, etc. I said that made sense. How I'd think more about it.

Stay tuned for part 3: Stuff about MC and evidence that T has better boundaries.