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Originally Posted by emgreen
Don't do anything too implusive. "Heading south" might seem a viable option, but I'd hope you'll have your ducks in a row before jumping in. FWIW, I'm 56 & my father's 77; we still get into it on occasion, & I have a hard time spending more than a few days with him & my mother. I know I should be grateful I still have them, but parents never lose their ability to push one of our buttons sometimes. I wish you luck, whatever you decide.
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You truly do not know my situation.
I moved in to help care for Mom, January of 2016. I've been there ever since. I've done my tour. My siblings, my parents, everyone, all have been aware that my parents need more help than I am able to provide since I told them from the hospital as a psych patient in August. Early September is the last anyone else has come to help. Mom kept getting harder and harder to deal with, because she's almost finally fully realized she will never walk again and they will end up in an assisted facility. I can't keep putting myself into them. There's very little of me left. Through this time, I've gotten a divorce, and hospitalized myself twice for suicidality associated with bipolar, the damages my ex did, and the crushing situation I was living in. If I return, I can assure you of one thing, I won't be alive by Christmas. That alone should help you understand some of how I have been feeling and what I've been through within two years time.
What's odd right now though, I don't feel anything at all. No emotions except a bit of confusion as to why I don't feel anything.