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Originally Posted by amandalouise
I had very little co consciousness. my treatment providers called it limited co consciousness. I had alters like you describe. in me those alters were called introjects. they were very similar to my DID alters but a bit different. they did not have to take over to cause me problems. I could hear their voices, knew how they were feeling, and remember what they did when they were in control. my introject alters took on the role of being the abusers with me, saying and doing acting like what my abusers did/ were.
the treatment I was on for the introjects was the same as having an abusive DID alter.... therapy, countering negative with positives, taking my meds as prescribed, ... the usually therapy stuff that works for things like ptsd, depression, anxiety,.... in other words nothing special beyond whats normally done for any mental disorders.eventually these introject alters just went away on their own because their sense of agency was was no longer needed. they didnt have to integrate/ merge together with me because I already had all the memories and so on that they had. like I said these introjects were different than my DID type of alters.
maybe your alters that you describe in your post are something like this where they are different than what most people have for alters so when you try and compare yours to everyone elses its different.
there is also dissociation doesnt look the same in everyone. example my DID alters were different from yours in general because you did not get abused in a mine shaft like I did, you dont have the same life that I have, you dont have the same health issues that I have....
my point.... my alters were there based on what abuses I went through as a child, what childhood trauma's I went through, what my body and mind needed to survive. your alters and system are set up in what ever ways you and your body/ mind needed to survive.
there is more to this but it gets really technical like how alters are created, how the brain works and so on, that your own treatment provider can explain to you directly related to you and your alters/ system.
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I know many people believe that DID was a coping mechanism developed so the child could survive like you suggest. I do not. I believe that the toddler's mind gets broken before it has a chance to develop normally. I believe that the alters develop over a period of years just like a normal child's personality would develop over a period of years. Each alter develops over time growing up in the abusive or dysfunctional family. How they develop is a function of their individual interaction with the sick family members who are traumatizing them. I do not believe that there is any sanity or logic in why the alters exist. Maybe if one could actually witness the interaction of each personality with the different members of the sick family, you might could find some logic in how they developed.
I believe a toddler gets traumatized so badly that the toddler goes into shock. A new born has no conscious personality. It has the innate brainstem portion of the brain but the conscious brain, the logical brain, has to develop over time. The memory, also, has to develop over a period of time but all of it starts developing at birth.) So if the toddler gets traumatized before the logical brain has developed appropriately it is the subconscious mind, the brainstem mind, that is affected because the logical brain has not developed yet. Any way we know that the toddler's brain development gets screwed up.