Altered, I was in therapy 1978-1987 and 1996-2005 with the same therapist. The first 9 years I was just standing still like you describe but oh, how difficult that was! Therapy at that time kept my head above water and that's about it. But if I hadn't had that therapy I wouldn't have survived.

Perhaps PC is like that for you. You don't see yourself moving forward but you also said you don't see yourself moving backward either. Well, one has to move one way or the other and if you aren't slipping, that means you're leaning forward, facing into the wind and engaged in trying to move forward! Directionality is a good thing. We all know the Cheshire Cat's conversation with Alice:
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Alice: I was just wondering if you could help me find my way.

Cheshire Cat: Well that depends on where you want to get to.

Alice: Oh, it really doesn't matter, as long as...

Cheshire Cat: Then it really doesn't matter which way you go.

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