I have made a post here many months before about autoandrophilia. Within the past couple months though, I have been..... I don't really know. Let me explain: I am biologically female. I have always considered myself female for that reason (biological genders and gender identities are 2 way different things imo, but that's not the topic right now). I am also a lesbian. Whenever I picture myself having sex (I'm unfortunately still a virgin), it's always me with a penis. Not a strap-on, but an actual penis. I have no desire to be penetrated or have oral sex done to me or anything. I have no desire to have my genitals touched. Except if I had different genitals. Then it would be great! Now if I could choose to be a man, I wouldn't pass the offer up. But thinking of myself as a dude is so strange. Thinking how I couldn't cuddle with my mom anymore (at least without it seeming kinda weird), having a deep voice, possible facial hair. It all seems like just some fantasy that couldn't be real because it would be completely different than what I'm used to my whole life so far (I'm 20). But I know I can't fully enjoy sex unless I have a penis. A strap-on is not a solution because I don't have nerve endings in a sex toy. So I guess... I want to be a man? But it's just weird to come to terms with? I have always been a tomboy and have always felt more masculine and in my 2 relationships (never did more than make-out and over-the-clothes touching) I played a more masculine role. Another issue is my body. I am 4' 11" tall. Incredibly short in general. As a man, that would be just..... ridiculous. Im not trying to show any hatred towards other short people, I just hate my height. And even if I was a full foot taller, that would be considered somewhat short for a guy.

Even if I got a sex change I would hate my height and never feel like I truly want.