((((((((((( wisewoman )))))))))))
It's so easy to feel empty when all you do is give and give and get very little to nothing in return. Been there done that. I too am in the care field and sometimes it feels like I'm on the back burner for far too long.
I'm slowly learning how to give back to myself and make myself realize that it is NOT a bad thing to do for oneself. I have some wonderful friends here who are helping me to learn that
I'm trying to wrap my mind around the fact that since I am a giver, it's ok to give to myself too. Mostly because it's not done in a manner of being selfish....it's done for a reason of being able to recharge so I can continue to give. That thought helps make it easier for me to help myself without feeling selfish or bad. Maybe you can try to think in those terms too?
I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you this past year or so. Please know that I send you warm and healing thoughts. Don't forget the reason we are here is to learn and grow and share. When you are ready to share....we are ready to listen!

sabby