Those are horrible feelings to feel. And is something I was particularly sensitive to as a child.

I mean, when your peers at school are literally surrounding you in a circle, laughing and pointing and hurling insults to you, day after day after day, that stuff sticks with you.

And is one of the reasons I am so held back socially even to this day.

I just can't describe those horrible feelings of panic, and feeling like your inner being is just washed in green slime. The shame and humiliation I experienced all throughout middle school was really bad. The incessant teasing and bullying.

Often I want to speak out, but am so afraid to. I hate crowds and I can't stand people or being around them.

It's not just indifference I feel. Some times I still can't stand those reminders of my childhood. Nobody can know what that's like if you haven't gone through it yourself.

I don't want hugs or kudos or pats on the back. I seriously don't. Just being heard is enough for me.