I am so tired of all the ups and downs. I don't feel I have the energy to keep going. I have an appointment with t this morning, and I don't even feel like going there. My kids and job are all that are keeping me going right now. My husband seems to be trying his hardest to make me feel worse. For a few days, he was actually nice. I got my hopes up again that things were going to change. Why do I do that to myself? I know his treating me nice never lasts, but yet every time he does I get my hopes up. He doesn't want me seeing t or taking my meds. I got a job so I could pay for therapy for my daughter and myself and get my meds. Now he's doing all he can to make sure I don't have money. I haven't been able to take my meds the way I should for a few months now. Sorry for all the complaining.