Krazibean my heart breaks for you. I am where you are right now. I haven't skipped a session because I already know what turmoil that will cause me.

I recognize that it will affect me and not him in the same way. In fact, he would probably be tougher with me if I did that.

I don't think our T's will ever truly feel out of control the way we do. So scared and alone. We open our hearts to them both in and out of the session and often times they mishandle it I think.

But then I wonder if they keep on letting us have this contact how do we move on?