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Old Dec 08, 2017, 01:04 AM
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How do you do this?

With him, anything that I share with him, it’s much worse for him in some way. In every way.

I feel stupid and he usually validates that with some kind of angry eruption.

There is no validation for my feelings and it usually erupts into a Jeckle/ Hyde switch that sends me away.

My feelings are coming alive and it’s hard to numb them anymore.

I really don’t know what to do with how I feel right now.

I want to run away.

There’s nowhere to go.

There really is a way out. I don’t want to say that there is no way out.

I’ve always stayed for my boys and for the promise I made when we were married. It doesn’t seem to matter to him these days.

It just feels like I’m by myself and alone in this.

I’m rambling.

I’m just so tired of feeling used and erupted on.

It hurts me.

I can’t imagine a different outlook.

I want to but I feel trapped.

I don’t belong here.
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