There is a different life to live than this one. There are different options in which you can live in peace and calmness and emotional safety. It is okay to choose to not be abused anymore. It is okay to expect to be treated with respect from other people, and if other people are not willing to be respectful to you it is okay to choose not to be around them. It is okay to stick up for your own rights. Some people had at least one parent who did that for them. I expect you did that for your own children. It is okay to choose to be that person for yourself, to be the one person who will stick up for you and say "No, this isn't okay and needs to stop." If it doesn't stop, it is okay to be that one person who will stick up for you and say "I am not going to allow this to happen anymore."
I suspect you never had anyone do that for you before. I hope one day you can have freedom and safety from abuse. I hope one day you can be that person who will stick up for you, for you.
There is a different life out there. It doesn't have to be this for always. There are so many different lives you could live.