Slept 11pm to 12:15am. Wide awake now (it’s 2:04) Took imovane, it may as well have been an m & m. That was over an hour ago. Watching 80’s music videos on YouTube. Feel like I might as well get up. Do something. Frustration. Or maybe I’ll succumb to the Ativan. Despise this. Sorry just feeling pathetic and sorry for myself