I lost my best friend when he died in a car accident. His next door neighbor was backing out of her driveway at the same time my best friend was riding his bike she had hit him. Three days later they pull the plug. When we return back to school two days after school started back up we received name informing us of the funeral and anyone who want to attend the funeral would be excused from class or from work. I went to the funeral and had nothing but nightmares after the funeral. I begin to suffer from complicated grief. I couldn't return to school and no longer want to ride my back or do anything that I used to enjoy doing.

Six month before he had pass away I felt like something was wrong whenever I was around him I would get a really bad vibe. I didn't know what it was at that time. The last time I had saw him I touch him and felt this horrible pain go through me and I didn't know what it meant. We had just got out for spring break and sometime in the middle of spring break I had this bad feeling something was wrong and by the end of spring break I was certain something bad happen and I just didn't know what it was. When I skimmed the note I didn't realized it was my best friend or anyone had died just that someone had been in a car accident. I didn't realized it was my best friend they were referring to just that bad feeling something was wrong. It wasn't until my mom had read the note and had informed me he had died and the funeral was the next day.

It still hurts during the Easter holidays. I started hurting like I did when I was a little girl. The grief and the pain had hit me ten times worst than it did when it all happen. The grief is really bad. I never got any help and the help that I had tried to get when I ask for a referral? I was told I was crazy and need to be locked up.