My therapy sessions usually start by me entering the room, my T saying "hi", to which I usually don't answer. He would actually shake hands as well but I rejected that more than a year ago. Then I will go and lay down on the couch and then fall silent for about 5 minutes. By that time my T has come to the conclusion that I probably won't be starting my session today and tries to get us going somehow.

Sometimes he tries to warm me up with a question like "how was your weekend" or "how do you feel this morning" or something similar and I totally hate that. I never tell him because honestly, it's not his f..ing business how my weekend went or how I'm currently feeling (not that I would know that anyway).

So we struggle every session. And every attempt he makes to try to be helpful just makes me so angry for some unknown reason. And obviously I don't want to talk about my anger because that feels like giving in to him. So, yeah, whatever. I guess I sound pretty angry ...