started Latuda 4 weeks ago and am feeling great ... went to my last pdoc appt walking on the air ... things went very bad ... my emotions got the best of me and I became really pi**ed off .. lashed out and basically told my pdoc he was fired ... by the end of the day I had come to my senses and feel like such a fool ... I have been so flat to slightly down for so long having that energy to assert myself turned me into a monster ... having emotional feelings again are great ... being out of control with them sucks ...

i know this sounds like such a minor event and it is ... but it makes me pause as this is the first time I have stood up for myself in years ... and I go off the deep end ...

am trying to draft a letter apologizing to my pdoc ... as he said he knows me better than anyone .. and I believe that ... so hopefully he will understand .... just wanted to get it out ... no response needed ...

Hope your holiday season is going well and your handling any stress well .... Tigger ..