Hello kanna: I'm sorry you've had this difficult experience. From what you wrote it does sound as if you've kind-of burned your bridges with this counselor. Not knowing more about your situation, I doubt there is much I can offer in the way of suggestions.

If this counselor is a true professional he should understand you are struggling & be willing to see you despite the nasty e-mail you sent. Perhaps, if you feel you can, you might try re-contacting him, apologize, & see if he will do so. Otherwise I'm afraid you're left with only the option of trying to find someone else. On-line counseling might be one alternative if you can afford it. I've never done it myself; so I can't really say anything about it positive or negative.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!