i don't know how to handle the emotional/mental abuse anymore. I've tried everything over the years & I have run out of options... I don't know what else to do. Everyday I feel more & more worthless, misunderstood & its destroying me. This is a description of what happens everyday.... This is yesterday...
We wake up and he asks what Im going to do today. I tell him there's some yard work I need to do before it snows, the usual daily house cleaning & that I wanted to work on decorating for the holidays. He responds with instant irritation saying, " don't you think there's better things you could be doing with your time? " so I ask him like what, he doesn't respond so I ask him what's wrong with me doing those things & he gets so angry starts yelling about why do I always have to argue with him and how he's so fed up with me going against what he says ext...
So I start getting ready for my day putting on makeup like I do everyday and he starts pointing out how much time I waste looking in the mirror & then questions me again about my plans for the day saying he doesn't believe me because I'm making it look like I'm being sneaky about something be cause im putting makeup makeup. At this point he is even more angry and now he's telling me how he just don't know about me and that I can't be trusted and how I'm careless, disrespectful, sneaky, and that there's something wrong with me cause I just can't do anything normally and he's sick of my ******** then he walks out the door.
He's gone all day, doesnt answer my calls or respond to texts and finally shows up at 1 am. . he comes home and starts questioning me about where I went and what I did and starts complaining about how he can look around and see that I do nothing and starts pointing out what he says is wrong with me. I ask what hisbpriblem is he yells at me for arguing and says im just pushing him out the door he leaves and comes back like nothing happened.
Everyday he attacks who I am as a person puts my character into question and is so disrespectful in everything he says or does to me. We've been together for 12 years and he treats me like I'm a piece of **** everyday but says he loves me. How do I respond to this