I seem to have 1 good day in 60 (and I'm not exaggerating. I'm talking about days that are totally depression free and POSITIVE).

You guys want to know the truth? I've been smoking for almost 30 years. I wish I'd get cancer so I can get out of here.



And I feel like it's really hard to overcome that and turn this around. I'm not happy. Life feels so mundane and pointless.

I'm just sick of everything.