Sorry to hear these events have occurred. That is a lot to carry. We all need a break at times, though. Even the strongest person can only carry so much on their shoulders before they break down. It's good to want to help others, but you help others best when you have first nourished yourself. The more water in your cup, the more you can pour into the cup of another. Finding a balance is good. I know how difficult it can be though, because I've struggled with it myself. I hope things get easier for you soon.