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LittleButterflyx
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Default Dec 09, 2017 at 08:25 AM
 
I understand this.

Part of my intrusive thoughts everyday involve me thinking "This doesn't matter you will die soon" Or make me think that every second I will die and the more seconds I don't die I obsess over the seconds I will.

This goes from mild to moderate to severe depending on any triggers or just how obsessive it gets. Sometimes it goes into health OCD hell and I am really messed up for several months thinking I am dying etc. Doesn't help that I know we all die someday and I don't know what will happen afterwards, its all a mess.

Currently, its just been the nagging thoughts in my head it hasn't gotten to terribly bad, but when it does its awful.

I don't want to age. I am almost 29, but some reason my brain takes that as I am old and going to die soon.

All I can say is use whatever distractions or coping mechs you have. I know how hard it is to compulse out of your head cause it often just comes back. I wish you luck.

I know for me meds and therapy can only do so much, its hard to live with OCD. I really do hope something can help you better.

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Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder (Bipolar Type), OCD, General Anxiety, PTSD, ADHD, an ED, Insomina, and Dyslexia.

Note: I bold and italicize words to help my Dyslexia.
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